*Thew New Year Means New Beginnings*

This New years I spent it with the group of friends that I hope will be their always for me! I Love these guys and I will always remind them of that! Anyways! Me and this group of friends which is Kevin, Kt, Kyle, And Bianca, we all decided to do the New Years at Pasadena! We decided to sleep on the street and become a bum for the day! We did this because for those of you who don't know the Rose Parade happens New Years day, and the only way to get a great spot is to sleep out on the street and hold it the night before! Their was a lot of people out their by the time we got their, and it was freezing cold! Thankfully I brought my Air Bed, which later on didn't help for my favor, but anyways, i had many blanket sleeping bags and warm stuff to keep me from freezing to death. Kevin was so use to this damn weather and he decided to go in shorts...just like always! Anyways, we met some great people out their and had a lot of great conversations! We even played Apples To Apples! It was a lot of fun...after playing just one game we all decided to go to sleep! The only thing was that i was so cold i was too uncomfortable to even sleep.....so i got up off of the damn bed since i was sharing it with kyle and Bianca, i got in a sleeping bag and began to knit while everyone else was sleeping, so i was the damn grandmother watching over my grand kids.....at leas tit felt that way! In the long run though the Parade the next day was amazing! I loved it so much! It was a great experience and hopefully we will do it again next year! But for now! This year i am working a few new projects, plans, and resolutions! I am gonna start up a journal! I will also be making videos on my own channel on YouTube! :) Anyways, thats all I can say for now, you will find out more later! And The Quote for today iiiiiiis! "TROLL'S BE TROLLIN" Bye everyone! B)

~Matthew Lopez~

*Falling Apart*

Hey everyone! I wanted to let everyone know that this point in my life is probably the hardest so far! Im stuck between trying to figure out my purpose in life, finding that special someone and trying to feel great about how i look! What do i do? I mean i have never been this weak before but all of this is getting to me! I cry myself to sleep every night! My family can see that somethings wrong but i dont wanna tell them whats wrong! Every day they ask if their is something wrong and i shrug my head no...I feel lost in the world! Will anyone come bring me out of the darkness? Fading in the world makes me a white wall on a building that means nothing to someone. What should a person do when they are abandoned from their friends? trying to get that feeling of relief and love seems to fade away from people. I'm falling apart! All the pieces just seem to skatter farther and farther everyday.....and missing my old love doesnt seem to be helping...

~Matthew Lopez~

What The Hell

Okay let me bring everyone up to speed! Okay so here we, i am Matthew Lopez, my birthday just passed in June, and i am 19. I work and go to school. Its about a couple of weeks before i got to school and i am typing to you all to catch up again! So i have something to really say! People do not understand me now a days. has it ever happened to any of you when you do so much, and take a lot of time out of your own time to help the family, and or keep the family a float? You sacrifice everything if you need to! You put your blood and sweat into things....but no matter how hard and how much you do things for other people they always seem to forget to say thank you, or they to appreciate anything you do? i really really hate that i feel like that right now. I am here typing in my room with my brother on his new laptop, and my mom is in her room which is here to the right of me...and to be honest i am annoyed. Not because they are here, im annoyed, upset, hot and bothered, because i keep doing so much in this little apartment we have and no one ever seems to want to say thank you, or even go out of their way to do anything for me. And its like they dont like me being here....everything is happening that i always get the shit end....my mom suggests something and my brother agrees, and i disagree....worst thing to do now....because then i have them both telling me off because i even said something!!! When i talk to them i can admit sometimes i give attitude...more now because i cant stand this anymore....but i also say something and they think im giving them attitude all the time.....my brother doesnt talk to me as much anymore since he got his new lap top.....my mom is always mad at me.....but whos the one who cleans the house...wash the dishes...help his OLDER brother get into school...help my mom with financial issues...or go to the store to buy groceries...or even buy gifts for their friends....its exhausting!!! My mom told me today "to stop trying so hard!" and i was so mad! I cant believe she would even say that....its like i do what i can because no one else in this fucken apartment seems to want to do it....everyone is so fucken lazy!!! and i cant stand it....i do everything because i personally dont like the apartment looking like a mess, but seriously i know my mom doesnt like it dirty....and when it comes to my brother i know he just gets on my nerves and lets me do everything because he knows i will and that will help him from not doing it and getting out of doing it!!! I am so mad....and when i try explaining it to my mom, she looks at me like im crazy and she tells me off because she thinks im being rude! here is my own solution for this! i am going to go ahead and since i bought myself a new MP3 player, i am just going to listen to it all the time and stay away from them....and when they see that im not talking to them anymore they are going to get worried....welll at least my mom would! But i have a feeling whats going to happen is that im not going to be able to have that pass so easily! i know for a fact once i let them know why im so upset and why im not talking to them and staying away from them for a while, they will lash out at me, and get upset....but thats not worth them getting upset over and yelling at me for it....because its how i feel and if they cant respect that then that would be so rude...i probably would talk to either of them for a while! but this is what ive been trying to let out for the past three weeks....and i personally dont know what to do....i just know what to do when it comes to the circumstance of me fighting with them! hopefully it wont get to that! Well thanks for those of you who read this....who ever you are...and if their is even anyone their reading it!

~Matthew Lopez~

*Winter Quarter*

Hey everyone....sorry for the late update on whats going on over here in my life of living and going to school at Bakersfield. Well let me give you a little update since i haven't. LOL, OK for those of you who do or don't know i am recently attending school at California State University of Bakersfield. It's pretty chill up here that's for sure. Nothing is open 24/7 like in LA, but the people who live here are pretty fun to hang out with. Theirs been a lot that has happened in this past quarter. For those of you who know Dania, you will probably be shocked when i say this, but my BFF AE AE, now has a Boy Friend. LOL, and you guys are going to laugh when you guys find out who she is with! Well just to let you know, Michael, the guy who lives next to me in the dorms, is with Dania! I know that sounds weird but I'll explain everything. OK well i met Michael and his roommate David my first week of the school year. All of us have been hanging out with each other, and i really got know him a lot. Not even Jon and I are as close as i am with Michael. Well i mean now we are but that's a whole other story. (by the way, Jon is my roommate) So after getting know him, i introduced him to DEE over skype, interesting enough they really clicked, and after a while talking to each other, they exchanged numbers to chat with each other, such as texting each other like all the time. Well Dania got kinda Jealous because Michael kept talking to her about this other girl that he really liked, but things led to another, and he really began to like Dania, and Dania really started liking Michael, it was really cute to see how Dania would flirt with Michael, especially with her eyes. She loves to just flutter them up and down with such grace that it can make you shiver...i mean in a good way. LOL. Anyways, well after her chats with him, they really did begin to like each other even more, so when she came up to Bakersfield for a weekend they decided to get together, it was quit beautiful. Anyways, after that I had to talk to Dania because I heard from her less, and hardly knew what to talk to her about because all she could think about was talking about Michael. It was kinda sad, i mean i felt like I had no one to talk to. But after having a long talk with her, everything is cool now! I don't really think theirs anything else i need to talk about because that was the major thing that has happened. Anyways, I do believe that They both make a cute couple. I really don't know what else to say, sso the last thing that im going to leave with. Is Peace out "A" Town! :P

~Matthew Lopez~

*The First few steps into college*

Hey everyone! Well i know i promised all of you that i was going to post something new this weekend! So here i am with the update! As many of you know I am attending California State University of Bakersfield! My first steps into college have been really interesting! At first i was really afraid to talk to anyone especially because of the fact that I was sick for the first few days that i was here! after i got over it i began to branch out! first to my roommate! My roommate is really chill, his name is Jon! Jon is an awesome roommate that anyone could ask for! lol, anyways, i as for everyone else i have some pretty cool friends who live next to me, Michael and David which are roommates with each other! Michael was a Computer science major but now is a liberal studies major, while david is some type of medicine major or something! Anyways, jon is a liberal studies major as well! as for me i wanted to be a history major but i am really thinking about it right now! so i am undeclared! I can tell you all right now that i will not be attending this school for four years! I am planning to transfer from here over to Chicago State University! which im really excited about! anyways, if some of you are wondering i am taking english, math, political science, and csub 101! Anyways, i have also met some other cool ppl, such as Quarter, Vanessa, Kara, Katlynn, cassey, lilly, and way much more! Anyways, classes are going by fast! struggling in college is paryt of it i guess, and its mostly financially! but i will make sure to go ahead and keep my head up high! haha! anyways, figuring this all out is kinda hard at first, but it will always be that way when its something new! but anyways, after getting use to it, you pretty much know what your doing and whats going on around you! This damn school is an all sports school! at least i think so! LOL, anyways, i began to work out this year of school, and so i am trying to be more healthy, but im not going to get into that! What i will say is that i am really happy to be meeting new people and try new things! My mother and my brother are very supportive to the point were they are always making sure that i have everything that i need! I really do appreciate what they do for me, and i am really happy that they are always their for me! without them i wouldn't be in the position i am in right now! Thanks you guys! Anyways, ive noticed that my hours of sleep are less during the weekdays and way much longer in the weekends! lol, this really messes with me because i am always use to keeping in with the same schedule everyday and every week! So tampering with that has thrown me off just a little, not to much to the point were i don't know what i'm doing! Other than little mix up, i don't really hit any type of curves in my life! Im in a settle position in my life and i really do like that im stable enough to go through in my life!Emotionally stable is another story bc i always tend to have my emotions get the best of me, but no matter what i always tend to get past it and move on! Ok now that i notice i get side tracked very easy! Getting back to my friends i do notice that i have a great relationship between Jon, Michael, and David! They are really fun to hang out with, and i can be myself around them! its really great that i have friends that i can talk to when i need advise or help! Thanks you guys, anyways now regarding my teachers, all i can say is most of them are really nice! My csub 101 teacher is a different story, even though he is a great teacher to learn about the school, hes a little old school when it comes down to punishments! LOL, he makes us do 25 push-ups when we are late for class, which i don't like! lol! anyways, other than that hes really cool! as for the other teachers...my English teacher is really cool! But her teachings are a little whack, but i think that's just because shes new to teaching college! My math class is online and i don't really like it! My teacher for that is also a bitch! No offense to her! but still! hahahaha! anyways, and my political science teacher is awesome! i really do love him, he teaches great! Just that i don't appreciate him making fun of me when i told him something about the elastic clause! but that's a long story! lol!

~Matthew Lopez~

But I will be soon!! So I will update it as soon as I have free time! which will most likely be sometime by the end of this week!! But until then! Ttyl!

Also, I will be giving the details to what is going on in my college life! I know I haven't been on! And haven't been updating it as frequently as I should be!

Hey everyone! Ok I'm doing this from my blackberry, so its going to be a short one! Just for an update! I am falling for someone and am doing great in college!

~Finally An Update~

Hey everyone! sorry for the really long wait for the update! I've been really busy, and just to be honest really lazy! Sorry about that! Anyways, so just for an update...first of all I am no longer working, because i decided to go ahead and take some vay cay (vacation) to go ahead and relax and unwind before i leave to school! for those of you who don't know i will be leaving to CSU Bakersfield for the fall quarter of 2009! I have been admitted and will be attending and dorming over their! I'm really excited to be finally leaving the house and be moving onto a major chapter in my life! the cool part of this is, is that I was able to get all of the classes that i wanted! I will be taking Political Science, English 80, Math 75, and CSUB 101! Anyways In the process of me going to Bakersfield their are some major things to get to prepare for before i leave i had to go shopping obviously for my laptop...which i am currently using, after getting my laptop I had to go shopping for all of the necessities for my dorm, such as lights luggage, and all that fun jazz. after that I went ahead and went shopping for clothes! Now this has a whole story, but im going to try to cut it as short as i can so bare with me! okay so a few weeks ago my best-friend/sister came back from her trip around vegas, so we talked and tried to see what was the best day that worked for both of us, and we figured it out and we went ahead and went shopping together at the mall! That day was alot of fun, but anyways so now that i have everything its now time to get all the little things! but that's not important for me to type. anyways, also another thing that was cool was that i saw district 9, and man was that cool! A quick rating for the movie before i continue, the movie was great their wasn't really anytime that the movie was slow or boring it was action throughout the whole time, and its not one of your normal alien movie! I would have to give this movie 5 out of 5! Anyways, after that the recent thing is that i have been just planing all of my stuff together to go ahead and get ready to leave to Bakersfield! So i don't think there is anything else i need to go ahead and update so im just going to go ahead and just end this part of my section! But before i go because i just remembered...lol...I will be starting two different blogs that will be announced later on within the weeks before i leave, and for those of you who don't know i will be leaving for school Sept. 12!!! Thanks for reading! ;D

~Matthew Lopez~

CSU bakersfield pics

The New Beginings

At this moment in my life I am noticing a major change in my life...first of all I am noticing that I am having to learn how to deal with things on my own...and having to really start worrying more about my future!!! Although I may know what is going on and doing with my future I still am having to figure things out for myself...Iam really frustrated with what is happening though...I'm not going to name any names but their is someone that I am tiried of not giving enough respect to me and another person...I really am wondering what is going to happen in his life because he really needs to suck it up...and he really needs to grow up and learn some respect!!! I really hope things work out for him...because he really will need some help along the way...and sorry to say I am not going to be the one to help him...because I am done with trying...anyways that's what I wanted to talk about...and thanks for tuning in!!!

~Matthew Lopez~

t happened during graduation was when dania and I got seperated (so we thought) and then I called her and couldn't find her....but then after I heard her

get ready....after I got ready I left on over to the school to get position....after that I have to say graduation was fun....omg the funniest thing tha

people who didint know...anyways we had rehearsal then too because the choir was singing for the graduation....anyways after that I left home to rest and

I was spending the rehearsal with my good friends dania and suly....anywyas after graduation rehearsal it was 5th period and that is choir class for the

a day to remember...in the morning we had rehearsal while the rest of the school was taking their finals! Rehearsal was boring...but it was fun because

Hey everyone! Well I know i haven't been updating as much as I hoped...but let me give all of you an update....I finally graduated on june 18, and it was

s to all of my friends from abraham lincoln high school....CONGRADULATIONS to the class of 2009....go VISIONARIES!!!!!!!!!

ying and she made me cry...lol....anyways after graduation we went to gradnight and that was a lot of fun....to many hot guys...lol!!!! Anyways....this i

to say their last goodbye to me their was one person that I was looking for....and that was my mom....when I saw her she was so proud of me....she was cr

And she was on the same row as me....lol....anyways after that we got called and it was time to say goodbye to everyone...even though people were trying

TAYLOR SO HOT!!!

~Matthew Lopez~

Hi mattey why are ew WITH these pictures

Okay i am really tiredthat people love to mess with me...and what i dont understand is how they like to see the people tormented and people become afraid!

Hey everyone! Im here sitting next to my mother! I am just saying that today was an emotional day! But i was able to get through my day! Goodnight!

Note to self...hurry up and finish high school! Lol! Good night everyone!

*Prom 2009*

Hey everybody! I know I forgot to write for a very long time...but im back to give all of you wonderful people an update again! This time im going to talk about Prom!!! Okay So I just finished going to my Prom and Man Oh man was that a lot of fun!!! First let me start off by explaining our theme! We went with a "Roses under the Moonlight" Theme! It was awesome!!! Anyways, I went with one of my great friends, Melina (or other known as Mimi)And we wore Black on Off white (eggshell white, Ivory...whatever) colors, My suit was: The jacket was Black on Black strips (not pin strip), the under shirt was an all plain black long sleeve shirt, and the tie was white, on off white strips! My dates dress was Off white, with black roses going through them! Man we both looked sexy!!! LOL....anyways, But I have to give it up to some of the other people who went, They had some of these beautiful dresses on!!! One of the best ones had to be my best friends dress, (Dania) She wore this gorgeous dress that its too hard to explain! Anyways, but yeah prom was a lot of fun!!! All of the picture below were taken the day of Prom! Please feel free to comment on them!!!





























~Matthew Lopez~